An Athlete's Silence is introducing the ‘Spotlight’ series, a series of interviews highlighting the fantastic work organizations and individuals around the world are doing to heal traumatic experiences.
This month, An Athlete's Silence has the privilege of sitting down with Ghostwriter, editor, amplifying speaker, former athlete, author, and podcaster April Tribe Giauque for our SPOTLIGHT Series. April is a victor over Domestic Violence and walking a healing journey.
April is the author of the Out of Darkness: Find, Fuel, and Live Your Light! and Pinpoints of Light: Escaping the Abyss of Abuse.
It is with great pleasure to introduce, April Tribe Giauque:
Please introduce yourself and your organization.
My name is April Tribe Giauque (Juke), and I created Beacon of Light Writing Service
As much as you feel comfortable discussing, please tell us about your background/history with your abuse experience.
At the age of 8, my neighbor molested me. That started a spiral feeling of worthlessness, doubt, and shame. I suddenly felt that my actions and what I could produce equaled my worth and how others valued me. I began to consume the lies of pleasing, performing, and perfecting—it was my daily poison.
As a competitive power tumbler, it was easy to take the sport and use it as my driving force to consume the three "p's" of poison. I was competing at a regional and national level and soon held four national titles and a second place in the world for my division. I knew that dedication and perfecting my skills was the option I choose to pursue to help stuff away from the pain and shame of that neighbor.
I could not control the emotions and doubt that I felt because of the molestation, and soon, I needed to find something to control—food became an all-consuming control battle for me. Anorexia is the term for that, but for me, it was not really about body image, but about controlling the emotions of my body to see if I could starve out the shame. It didn't work.
I had to seek a higher power. I always believed in the Heavenly Father, but I didn't understand Jesus and his role. I guess because I would pray using Heavenly Father's name, not Jesus'. I didn't' know how He worked in all of this until I started repenting and asking for forgiveness of my control issue. It started working! I could feel myself become free from that burden and shame.
I chose to become a Missionary and help others in California feel Jesus' love for them. I learned more and more about the agency's power and that people have their choice and their freedom to choose God or not. Accepting that choice was a big lesson I learned while being a missionary. My healing journey is in my book, Out of Darkness: Find, Fuel, and Live in Your Light.
Following my mission, I met a fellow missionary, and we had so much in common; we felt that we should date each other and see where it might lead. Well, it led to an engagement and a wedding, all within five months! I felt we had a great foundation, testimony, faith, love, and drive to work hard that nothing would take us down.
Fast forward to our second year of marriage and one child born and another on the way, my husband running his own construction business and a load of stress which cracked him. Long story short about his history was that he suffered similar molestation from a neighbor and the shame that he felt he tried to down in alcohol and drugs before serving his mission. All those habits returned—plus something beyond his choice—mental illness in the form of schizophrenia. As his addiction progressed, so did the paranoia. Resulting in a world that was not real with me and my children caught on the wrong side of his schizophrenia story in his head.
He could never predict if I was there to help or hurt him, and abuse was the end-result. I share this terrifying journey in my book, Pinpoints of Light: Escaping the Abyss of Abuse.
What inspired or encouraged you to speak out and write about these experiences?
As funny as this might sound, the laundry. I'm serious. Ok, ok, I'll back up a little bit. At age 43, I had been working on my identity and how to find love and love others. At this point, I was a mother of nine children, and I desired to help them feel loved and connected and not suffer as I did from pain and shame. I had worked through the pleasing, performing, and perfecting on many levels, but I always wondered how I could love better and not measure others to deserve my love based on what they could produce.
Now, back to the laundry. One evening I was folding twenty-two loads of wash with my children and watching an interview. There was a question about how they gained a testimony that God loved them. One woman shared the story of delivering her son. She said that as they placed her baby in her arms, a powerful and overwhelming sense of love suddenly flooded her for this child! And then she said the words that broke me, "I loved him to the depths of my soul, and he hadn't even done anything! I suddenly felt my heart pierced to the center with these words, "I've loved you like that the whole time."
It broke me. I could feel decades of shame leave at that moment! Why? Because I finally knew that I was loved. Loved for me—not for what I perform, or perfect, or please anyone. I was loved for me, and I was worthy of that love.
Instantly I felt a second prompting, "Write your story—the whole story—I have many daughters that need this light in their lives." I left the laundry and started writing that night. Over the next two years, I wrote both books and shared with the world my story of escaping abuse and how I healed, all thanks to doing the laundry.
What are some of your work's key elements or components when raising awareness for other organizations/individuals?
I help women know their value and worth by teaching them that they are of God's Family and valued above all. We do that by helping them heal by finding their light, fueling it, and writing their story, amplifying it to others.
I also started a campaign in the middle of the pandemic to have my book reach 11,000 shelters in the US. This dream was so the survivors in these shelters could receive the knowledge and hope they need to know that there is life after abuse, and through this knowledge and truth, they can change their lives.
You are WORTHY of love and light! Fight for your healing, and your life will change forever!
What are some challenges you have faced in recent months, Covid-19 related or otherwise?
In recent months, I have faced my husband's health challenges and becoming the sole breadwinner for a family of eleven on a teacher's salary. Hence why I ghostwrite, developmental editor, writing coach, and book launcher.
Do you have anything in the future that you are feeling inspired about and working toward?
I have a screenplay, and we are approaching directors and producers to make the movie of my abusive experiences to help give people hope that they can get out and start a conversation about why so much abuse happens in the first place. What is this war on men, and why are they raise in shame, doubt, and fear to need to control and hurt others to stop their hurt? Generationally we have to interrupt this way of living and the destruction of the family that follows.
What words describe you the best and why?
Action, Service, Enthusiasm, and Amplification of others! I believe that we all have light within us. Light is a wavelength of energy. That means it can be stretched to reach others. If everyone has this light, we don't come together to add our light to their's—no—we need to act as a mirror or a lens to REFLECT that light and help stretch it towards others. We need to become a beacon of light by amplifying the light that others have all around us. How? Through loving them first, I can help their light reach the right audience, friend, or stranger who needs to hear their message. This process is amplification.
What do you want your readers to take-away from your books and speaking engagements?
There is always hope! There is always light. LOVE is the power that changes everything. They have self-worth, are valued because they have life, are worthy of being loved by others/belonging, and can love others.
9. How would you want to be remembered?
I want to be remembered as someone who served and amplified others.
10. Where can people purchase your books and hire you to speak?
Social Media links:
https://wwm/aprilgiauquew.instagram.co https://www.linkedin.com/in/april-tribe-giauque-msed-455578145/ https://twitter.com/TribeApril https://www.pinterest.com/apriltribegiauque/ www.apriltribegiauque.com https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCIHWTfL9q2jawYGqN6W1yOg?view_as=subscriber
April T Giauque is a published author & empowerment speaker. Her first published work,
Pinpoints of Light: Escaping the Abyss of Abuse is her heroine story of escaping abuse
with her five children. Her second, Out of Darkness, is her healing journey that followed.
She has experience in developmental editing, line editing, writing coaching, &
She empowers women to move from trauma to truth and darkness to light by helping
them heal through their story and share it boldly through writing and speaking. Pinpoints
Across America is the movement to place her book of hope in 11,000 shelters. Through
her podcast, Beacon of Light, she highlights authors who write about hope and healing.
With ghostwriting, she takes your work through her head, hearts, and hands and turns it
into your masterpiece. She lives in Texas with her hubby and nine children.
For more information visit her at:www.apriltribegiauque.com
Connect with April with any of the Social Media
Programs and Books:
Pinpoints Across America Book Donation to Shelter
Virtual Book Launch Coach
April Tribe Giauque
340 Purple Martin Ave Kyle TX 78640
To Whom It May Concern:
My name is April Tribe Giauque (Juke). I am a victor over domestic violence. I escaped
domestic abuse over 14 years ago. I am an author, speaker, and podcaster who shares my
story of escape through light, hope, and victory with victims and survivors of abuse. Why? I
know that survivors need hope. I believe that my story of light can change victims' lives to
become victors over their abuse.
My published works, Pinpoints of Light: Escaping the Abyss of Abuse, gives real hope to
anyone in domestic violence to know there is a way out, through exit plans, supporters,
deciding to leave. In my second book, Out of Darkness: Find, Fuel, and Live in Your Light, I
help survivors discover their light, their worth, and their healing journey (after many types of
abuse). I know healing wholeheartedly is absolutely possible.
I created a national campaign called Pinpoints Across America. It is designed to have people
all over America receive two free copies of my book (only pay a small shipping fee), and then
deliver it to a local shelter in the hopes that it will offer the people you serve hope and light.
The power of positive stories helped me after I escaped abuse with my five children. I needed
hope. I needed light. Safe Harbor, in Utah, was the shelter that saved me. They gave me hope,
a plan, and a way out. I desire to provide that hope for 11,000 shelters across America with my
book donation of Pinpoints of Light to their facility. I want survivors to read it and know that they
truly can start a new, fresh life after abuse.
Please accept the book as a pinpoint of hope for everyone you serve.
Thank you so much.
April Tribe Giauque